I have been tired with this chemo. I do a few things and seem to get worn out. It hasn't been like the AC but I haven't had my full energy. And the frustrating part is that I am hoping I will feel better tomorrow and Monday but I start it all over again Tuesday. I don't seem to get as much recovery time. Oh well it just means I will have lots to work on come mid October with loosing some weight and doing work around the house!
With this being said I have had a few "weepy" moments the last few days. I started this whole process with my diagnosis the end of February. After 5 months I have hit the brick wall. I am tired. My arms feel weird and always will feel that way. My chest feels like I have a cord wrapped around it. My port bugs the crap out of me. I have to sleep flat on my back with my arms propped up. I have to drink lots of water every day. (Therefore you know what comes after that!) I take pills constantly (which I had never taken more than an Ibuprofen before this). I have to always worry about getting my arms infected...no sun, no burns, no bites, no open wounds. My aunt passed away yesterday and I don't have the energy to even attend her funeral in St. Charles.
Whew...sorry I just had to say all of this. I do not want sympathy. Please do not feel sorry for me. I am a survivor! But there are some days that are difficult. Just like it is in "normal" life. I am positive and know I have God on my side but it is a journey of ups and downs. I say all of this so you have a realistic idea of what happens in a survivor's journey.
Looks like we have 42 for the Race for the Cure Coulter's Crew. I have been trying to get out my thank you notes but I am moving slow. I would like to thank all of you for your contributions. Some of you have contributed in my name so I am not able to personally thank you. Just know I truly am touched by your giving to this foundation.
I hope you have had time to enjoy this weekend. It is hard to believe it is August in Kansas City and the temps have not been in the 90's.
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