Fog Started to Lift But Fell Back Down

Current forecast is for the fog not to lift for awhile.

I had an ultrasound today on the two areas of the left breast that were undetermined after the MRI.  One area was well defined but the other was difficult to see.  After the radiologist read it he suggested I needed to have an ultrasound biopsy on the one that could be seen and an ultrasound MRI guided biopsy on the other spot.  But then he said that if I chose to have a double mastectomy then I didn't need to do anything.  WHOA.....how do I know what I am doing was my question?  The poor little tech was just relaying the information to me and I was becoming slightly agitated.  She suggested I talk to the nurse navigator.  (I think she was going to suggest anything to get me out of her area!)  I went back to the waiting room and Rick could tell that I was becoming unglued.  He had no idea whether he should say something or just remain quiet.  I blurted out "just cut them both off and be done with this"!  At this point I knew the fog was so dense that I couldn't go any further.

We met with Janie and she tried to navigate me through the process once again.  My fog lights were not working well at all!  Of course complicating the decisions are the fact that several of the doctors will be gone the next few weeks to spend spring break with their families.  (What....they need to cancel all trips and pay attention to me!) I was getting so confused about why I needed to make a decision of either lumpectomy or mastectomy when I still did not have all the facts or final consultations from the surgeon or oncologist.  After a few tears and Rick diplomatically laying out what we knew Janie agreed that I needed to talk to the surgeon again.  In the meantime they will be scheduling the biopsies for the week of the 19th.  I meet with the oncologist on Monday afternoon.  The radiolgist oncologist's appointment isn't until the 19th.  It looks like no plans will be in place and surgery will not be until the end of March or first part of April.

I have been instructed to take a "cancer free" weekend.  I plan on doing that and looking forward to a few days next week with my grandkids.

Enjoy your weekend also.